hmmm..

feelin very lame after writin alot about myself
dun wanna say anyth bout wat happen 2 me every wik la...
actually i feelin very very sad...
i really dunno wat 2 do....felt lyk i've been tied up...
i wanna prove 2 every1 dat i can b a better person but...
i still cant make it happen...i cant do anyth
wat can a solider do wen book out sia...

Ayngi jux in case if u read my lame blog...
i wanna let u noe dat i still love u but its jux e matter of if i will hav another chance or not...
i really really miss u...i wanna c u...i dun nid u 2 hang out wif me...
its enuff for me 2 c u even once...
jux wanna noe how u doin...

2 wik....

ok now continue frm sat...

dat day i nid 2 wake up quite early...

cuz e whole platoon meetin up for lunch at Seoul Garden...

sry ar Jing Ning...i forgt 2 cor u cuz i was rushin den completely forgt...

we actually plan 2 mit up at 11:30 but e last person Jun Long reach at 2pm hehe

but we all wait until he finish...oh ya i hav no idea if he gt pay e $23 or not

i tink sum ppl nv pay cuz there's 2 many ppl dat day....

guess e ppl frm seoul garden dun even noe who pay or who nv pay hehe

dat day oso go park lane again n play lan game...eat dinner den play again...

dis tym oso finish at 11:30...dat night go bak wif Li Long n tk cab so nv really reach hm very late

12:30 reach alrdy...until i reach hm i haven even wash my clothes...

i felt lyk e wik really really short...e nxt day hav 2 book in alrdy....

last wik 2 slag aldy...literally we all nv do anyth until thursday...

dat day we wake up at 4:30 n prepare for section live firin which is a very dangerous trainin

i was very very surprised dat e live range is connected 2 e public..sum more its near e NTU...

jux bash through sum vegetation can reach alrdy...no even a fench at all..

jux nxt 2 NIE dun really noe wat is dat but NIE is located aft NTU....

dat day we cannot start until 10am cuz of e Cad1....

den we were 2hrs late...dat day every1 gts dirty...

its e wet muddy ground n we hav 2 prown there...Alpha company more worse

whole body mud n dirt...every1 hav 2 stay lyk dat until we go bak...

cuz of e night firin we cant go bak until aft 12 midnight...at night hav 2 tk extra precaution

cuz we cant c anything..every1 shootin den if nv shoot properly can easily kana ur fren...

any misfire n u fren die....u oso as gud as dead

these things happen b4...so every1 scared...

but we still can make it through....reach bak 2 camp at 1am i guess...

finally we all gt 2 bath alrdy....luckily still gt bus 2 bring us bak 2 camp

friday...every1 lookin forward 2 dis day but not me n sum of my frens...

cuz we all kana guard duty until sat mornin..i do Sentry dis tym....

very very sleepy...finished my breakfast wif jux a bun..

its all cuz of guard duty...finally book out den go hm...

slp until 2pm...den go out again at 4:30 2 Jurong east

do sum fuck off stupid senseless things n go bak hm at 9am...

reach hm aldy watch TV den bloggin until now....

sian ahhhhh.......nxt wik gt out field again...dis tym slpin in forest again...

not even bunk..if rain die man...plz dun rain plz....

k dats it...now feelin abit betta

its drivin me CRAZY

been 2 wiks since i blog last tym...

sia la really lazy 2 blog sia...

but nvm since i gt nothing 2 do..... i jux blog every thing...

cant really rmb wat i did on last monday...

i guess i jux slag all day long if i'm not wrong...

cuz on tuesday morning ard 5 or 6 e whole company move out for out field alrdy..

sry i guess e whole bettalion...my very first out field for AIT phase

it's still at takong...same as last tym BMT out field

e onli diff is e location..we slp at a quite remote location...

but luckily its a camp site..not lyk last tym slpin in basha..it was terrible man

dis tym oso wasn't really luckily cuz since e first day at ard 10am it rains fukin heavy

i wasnt expectin it..actually we reach there ard 8am den started

our nevigation practice in section lvl...

dis nevi practice is no diff wif route march cuz we all carryin field packs

it was heavier den last tym...our sect nevigate until 2 fibua village

all tgt its ard maybe more den 8km...

e prob is..it starts 2 rain at 10am...

we tried 2 hide inside e forest but e rain was jux 2 heavy

its Cad1 leh...e fucker CO nv stop e trainin

sum more e nevi gt tymin so cant tk so much tym...

every where's water n guess wat???our boots r lyk water buckets..

reach fibua village ard 2pm den tk out our boots n smelly lyk hell sia X(

tk out e boots not very long hav 2 put bak bak alrdy

den rest until night falls...i jux slp in my wet boots n wet clothes until 5pm

imagin how cold it was...den continue e stupid nevi at night...pretty dark but still can make it

spring my ankle jux b4 i reach e camp site...really really pain but still hav 2 continue

reach e camp alrdy cant tk off e boots yet...i dun mind my uniform being wet...

but wet boots...dats fukin terrible...

for 30min we hav 2 wait until e bunk is ready....finally tk off e boots

my pale n wrinkled...looked really ungly sia...

e gud th is we gt 2 bath hah^^

den change 2 new set of uniform...

wen slpin at night i feel lyk i'm slpin in an air-con rm

cuz it's very cold..i was wearin long 4 but its still very cold...

cold until i wake up every 2hrs...

e nxt day..section fire movement..near oil plantation...

e terrain is really bad...not jux tall grass..gt alot of water n even a small pond...

e worst tarrain 2 practice...dun which fucker go n choose dat kinda of place...

our ps e best man...he go n choose a better high ground...

it was e place where we all dug our self-scrape last out field...

though e wether is not really forgivin cuz its very hot..we did our best

ok..our section 3 is e best ^^oops..m i being 2 proud???

sry guys accecpt e truth hehe...:P....we continue until 8:30 i guess

den go bak 2 camp site, clean rifle den slp...

3rd day...dis is e really fuk up day...

e trainin is e same..fire movement..but diff location...

its jux at e back of e camp...btw e camp name is Sa Yong Kong camp if i'm not wrong

dis tym e trainin is not tough but e terrain is lyk..e grass r quite tall

quite difficult e move ard but we found a very good spot 2 do e fire movement..

e difficult tym starts ard 1:30pm rite aft lunch...

its none other den e rain...oso Cad1 but trainin nv stop...

we hide under sum trees..e rain was quite long until ard 3pm..

we jux stuck there until e rain stops...wen e rain stops, ps told us 2 gather...

every1 gather 2 show hows e fire movement 2 e fuker potato

but ps told us 2 hide at one corner cuz he noe dat we haven practice anyth much..

i hav no idea how other sections train in dis kinda weather...

actually my section slag e whole day cuz ytd we all do very well

n gt e privallage e slag all day hehe...if not of e prev day guess we will oso b trainin in e rain...

e condition is much more worse den e first day...b4 e rain starts its was very very hot...

den suddenly rain very heavy...guess wat we all kana heat rash....

e whole body ichy...ok la above all we nv do anyth much..

actually PC n PS oso noe la...even Enchik oso noe

but he nv say anyth...shiok ar heh....

aft dinner PC follow us den we dun dare 2 slag alrdy...train abit abit

den slag again hehe...at night oso abit abit...chit chat wif PC n PS

oh e best part...i gt 2 throw e lightenin flash..cool^^

lol...dat night PC n PS do sum stupid thing...PS taught PC how 2 hold e lightenin flash aft ignitin it

PS really scared dat PC will tell other about it..

we watch PC dat 1...i kept lookin at e ignited lightenin flash den "bang"

i go completely blind hehe.....but temporarily la....

over all its very cool...den go bak aft 8:30...

dis tym my feet looked more worse....i felt lyk my whole feet turns into jelly

dat night i slp until onli until 4am den hav 2 gt up alrdy...

cuz we hav 2 move out 2 BMTC more earlier den other companies...

finally reach back 2 camp b4 lunch...den at night book out...

but nv go hm straight away...go park land play lan until 11:30hehe

go bak wif mrt but no more train alrdy...e onli train is to kranji

so no choice go until kranji den tk cab....reach hm at 1:30am lol...

i guess dis blog 2 long alrdy...2b continue.....

OMG...wat a wik

wow...been a very tiring wik

runnin almost every day sum more aft runnin do stupid PT...

relaxed onli on tuesday...monday run, PT n learn navigation

Tuesday continue navigation...wed run, PT n still navigation

Thursday not runnin but IPPT....gt 5 stations 2 complete

chin up, standing board jump, sit up, shuttle run n 2.4km runnin

1st 4 stations all gold onli 2.4 km run...finish wif silver timing...

actually aim for gold but i still nid 2 train on my runnin...

but sumth dat every one unexpected happen...

Ming Chan gt gold sia...i was really surprised...haha

haven even rest for long we go for lunch den cum bak immediately

go outside camp n do cum more nagvigation thing...

cum bak straight away prepare for guard duty...

by dat tym my legs r alrdy aching...

den go dinner 1st, cum bak go for a parade b4 doin guard duty..

dis tym i do prowler...dunno if i made a wrong choice or a right choice

but i nid 2 go ard e camp for 2hr wif onli 10 mins of rest

aft my detail i slp onli less than 4hr cuz of e Turn Out

aft slipin prowl ard e camp for another 2 hrs

immediately aft dat go for breakfast...wen cum bak cant even rest

hav 2 check e bags of every one cumin inside e camp

by dat tym it was 7am...more den 30 ppl hav 2 book due to unproper attire hehe

every thing finish at ard 8:30 am...cum bak 2 my bunk n wash up

haven even rest its alrdy 9:15am...by 10 am i nid 2 go for FCO..

hard 2 explain wat dat is..its jux a drill for how 2 move while firin...

right aft dat is lunch....after lunch nv even rest have 2 area cleanin alrdy.

at 2:30 we go 2 east coast for runnin... hai..runnin again...

after runnin den can go home from there...those fuckers nv even gif any transports bak

felt very hungry after runnin so go find Mac..OMG its a very very long way

me, Ian, Hong Sing, Embard go for dunno how long...

by e tym we reach there i feel lyk i'm breakin down...

believe me its been a very long wik until i reach home...

my bak is still achin dun even noe y...

nxt wik goin for another out field alrdy...

hopefully wif e help of Brigade Commander we will be able 2 slp at BMTC

instead of in e forest....its obvious dat he's a good man not lyk e fukin Potato

recently i facin alot of ups n downs....

lyk a roller coaster ride....wen things happen i wen 2 think positively

but mostly all negetive so its very hard e see it positively

how? how?.....i wish every things bak 2 normal aft dis NS

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